Loneliness and Isolation: The Terrible Wound of Childhood PTSD

The Daily Practice changed my mind- literally. It cleared a “path in my brain” for me to be calm in the moments that make me dysregulated.

Thank you Anna, for the language you’ve taught me- I know you didn’t invent it, but you introduced me to the word for it: now when I get triggered, I can care for myself. LIFE HAS OPENED UP!
My healing got that Huge Boost.
YOU CAN CHANGE!!!
❤️❤️❤️

TBH I’ve given up. I just want to be left alone.

Why would I want to connect with people? Most are just leeches that suck the life energy out of you anyway.
There are many beutiful and kind people in the world, the chance to meet one feels very slim though.
There will one day exist a society without separation as it has long before our time.
First the world must burn to put an end to this sick society, only then can there be room for transformation.

I still looking for a counselor who doesn't leave for other pursuits, a consistent counselor is important. I have mpd. And consistency is important, trust.

Human connection? sure instead of just isolating myself for another 30 years i have started to go out and see other humans.

It’s incredible how many valid and valuable points you make in such a short time!!!

You learn that people and system are evil lier's and terrible brainwashed

Too late for me 😢

Guess I’m gonna kill myself one day.
I just can’t keep going anymore.

How come no one has ever made a video about low level depression due to the finding of a parent dead. Hmmm??? It never goes away I have had it since I was eight but I never knew I had it until I was forty eight. I looked back over my childhood and realized that it was why I had no friends, no girl, no ambition and now I am 75 guess what? No friends, no girl, no ambition. No matter what I did it wasn’t capable of overcoming the affects it had on me. We didn’t have all the things they have today. But no one ever says anything about it

CHPTSD? 👍

Thank you for being vulnerable. Bless you. 🙏

Thank you!

Interesting. But of course the brain rewires itself with time. And in doing so can `wire out' loneliness. If loneliness is wired out then the need for companionship is largely negated. Then an individual becomes - if not comfortable with loneliness - at least reconciled to it. I suspect something of this kind is in progress with the MGTOW movement we are seeing in modern men...

my parents were alcoholics they always got drunk and fought . it upset me and my sister i had few friends my mother said i was not aloud to have any girl friends . i got married at the age of 48 in 2004 my mother disowned me because she is a italian .

What if I lived a normal childhood but still have difficulties to connect with other ppl ? Really early in my life, my parents were busy with work and often finish late. I can't even count the number of times i felt alone w/o my parents. Being the 1st arriving and the last child staying at school. They had to retake their studies cuz their degree were not accepted. Also once at home, my parents were drained and didn't really had the energie to talk or do anything else. I had to play by myself, create somehting by myself. I didn't have the opportunity to talk to my parents enough i would say. It's understandable with how was their situation they had to work had to get the life they have now. Which is really comfortable. Having no real familly outside of my parents where i'm leaving. My parents who havent really had friends (they from abroad). Etc. They r not also the most sociable ppl. Idk sometimes i feel like maybe i have been so use to being comfortable alone that its diffcult for me to open to ppl. And it's not like i'm shy or not sociable or having anxiety. I'm a pretty confident person i can say. I'm in age where ppl like me supposed to have fun, having a girlfriend, enjoy life with friends, go out or spend time at their spot. And it has been ages since i've done that and i feel like i missing the best period of my life. Right now, my sociale situation impacted a lot my studies and my life in general. in addition of that, i'm afraid to lose myself. To lose confidence and pride. I lack of motivation and I'm afraid to end up weak with anxiety cuz at some point i feel it coming. I don't want to go out no more of fear of ppl judgement for, at my age, still leaving at my parents, having no job, no degree & no friends or girlfriend. Anyone I know are not in the same situation as me they at least have one of them three : a job or friend(s)/girlfriend or a degree or in their way to their degree. And i know ppl who have anxiety or are really shy or having difficulties to socialize but still have friends. It's insane to me and it lead to comapre myself to those ppl. Idk, i'm really lost with my life. I feel different but in a very bad way. Idk if i will sustain long enough. I really don't see myself living this life my entire life or even after my 30s. I don't even know if i need help, I ve tried nothing came out favorable.

All said here is true. But, I bypassed the issues by working completely alone, living completely alone, and living in a very, very, rural area. I go weeks without seeing humans, save on television. But, this is what I learned and what I know. The issues of not recognizing negative people, inability to connect, and no knowing how to depend on others are completely circumvented by simply staying away from the population. Not knowing how to connect, or make friends, is not an issue if there is nobody around to connect and befriend.

Turns out that if you were abused as a child you’re a magnet for borderline narcissistic people.

Thanks Mom slapping ,kicking, pushing ,shoving ,face punching, what could be worse? Your lack of hugs ,caring, your verbal abuse was top of the mountain, I absolutely love not having you in my life, narcissistic cruel behavior is your Trophy 🏆🫵🏻👺

The indigenous have a different perspective. I was part raised by full blood Australian aboriginal aunties. They were stolen generation white Christian men did horrible things to them. Being number two son I was quite often passed on to my uncles aunties. Being a white Christian you can imagine what was dished out. Being traditional what is called dreaming followed my aunties. When a person is around this energy it feels dreaming feeling and seeing. When my father picked me up he saw it in my eyes and had to beat the you know what out of me to bring me back into a intellect nature. One time my father nearly knocked me out again but aunty was close and in dreaming I saw through the veil the ones imitating my pain and shock. Or was I imitating them . Aunty said I would learn . Nearly 20 years later I did. Out of body near death experience back seat passenger m.v.a. ptsd in 86 well a person had to wear the symptoms until they faded.

My horrific time was my 25yo+ adulthood. I had a happy, satisfying childhood.

It’s too late 😢prefer to be alone. And at 64, I’m comfortable with complete solitude….

As a man that never opens up or speaks about my issues. I'm experiencing a reoccurring nightmare a few days per week. I am visited by a demonic entity that takes the shape of an old man. He has a bruised up face and his eye balls are hanging out of the eye sockets. He comes into my bedroom places both his hands on my shoulders looks me in the face and says "you were destined to be alone, no one will ever love you and if you were to scream no one will help you because no one cares" then he raises his voice and says the following words "you will be alone forever" he says this 3x and while he says this his grip begins to tighten around my shoulders. And at this particular moment in time I am experiencing what can only be described as the purest form of fear it's actually unbearable. It's feel like I am going to p!ss my pants. As if you were 7 years old again and one of your siblings convinced you that something was a hiding in the dark. At this moment I wake up and my heart begins to pound through my chest and I start scanning the room for the old man. This is where it feels like I'm having a panic attack. I've come to realize that when you don't have someone to speak to after a certain amount of time your mind actually begins to crack. I'm a strong person I am very resilient but physiologically my stress is beginning to impact me. And it's getting worse and worse.

It took me until four months before I hit 30 to reach that moment of clarity, acceptance and forgiveness for everything that had happened to me and that I had done to myself. Genuinely did not believe it was possible to reach that point but I am very glad all those time I always managed to convince myself to not end it all and keep trying to heal and grow.
One major aid was learning info like what you are talking about-it isnt just me; it is a textbook symptom of childhood traumas and every human being seems to respond the same way to it. Seeing my responses to it all as simply a shortcoming of the human brain to deal with trauma and that other people had gotten through it too kept me going for sure.
Its impossible to believe that it can get better when you are in that place and even having gone through it I still struggle to know how to help others get through it, especially women as they get a lot more attention-but mostly from those that do not want to help and it makes it hard for them to trust genuine help. Helping other men is a lot easier but still difficult. Just gotta keep putting out kindness into the world how you can and hope they pay it forward for others :)

Isolation is a small price to pay. Rather that than “Bleeding my soul in bad company” -Cat Stevens

Peace in Christ surpasses all understanding. Thanks Lord for your Word.

I dont understand why both my parents isolated me for literally YEARS, "grounded" was their excuse, i wasnt even allowed to walk or ride my bicycle around the neighborhood and go see my bestfriend literally houses down from me, so i stayed in my room while they beat eachother up for years, and i was isolated with psychopaths online who sexually exploited me, i grew up and escaped and almost got trafficked because i was attracted to characters like my dad and people online, i almost died. The only thing that saved my life from others, and even killing myself, was God

Private school traumatised me.

I’ve been isolated for 3 years now and I can’t take it! I need a friend! I was just a kid and still am! This isn’t even my fault!

Loneliness is a state of mind. If you resolve not to be lonely you wont be.

When generally most people actually are assholes, what is the point of connection? The more time goes by, the less friends I have. At 61, I figure I have maybe 20 years or so left. Then, I won't have to worry about it.

Relate to everything you said. 🙌🏼 Both you and Lisa Romano are my favourite self help angels. Thank you ❤

Thank you. In today's world it can be difficult to find like minded friends and those with narcissistic traits are destructive...it's frustrating to know their issues and be their target. Regulate? You suppress self as they perform and cause alot of unnecessary drama.

It wasn't my parents who abused or neglected me, I was bullied by kid's in school. From the time I was in 1st grade til I dropped out of HS in 11th grade. I had very few friends in my childhood. I don't really trust anyone.

There are times when I'm feeling unwanted (which often turns out to be true) I feel this intensely, feeling like I'll never be able to connect simply because I never got to do it when i was developing and now its' too late. So I'll listen to your series and see what it say.

Hahaa my current plan is to stay single and work on myself before I try to date 🤣 I knew there was something wrong w that picture like magically thinking I will heal relationship problems while not in a relationship

Thank you ❤😭

I was definitely robbed of that and still am You spend your whole life just wanting someone to just love you but noone does. You work your fingers to the Bone just trying to be good enough and you never are they need you for sure but they don't love you I've wasted my entire life serving others

I have a question so I have a friend and his mother is trying to isolate him completely from friends and everyone. She has control over Xbox account PC discord. He actually just recently had to delete a Discord because of his mother. My question is is that abuse

To be honest, I've made friends with my loneliness and prefer it to people. I know intellectually that that's wrong but it's where I am right now.

Try Complex Childhood ptsd

at 63, still alone, joined church, no one interested.

I love listening to you! I don't know how to find your link.

My neural pathways are embedded. I smoke weed to help relieve myself of the ptsd.

I feel huge wave of appreciation to you! Thank you.

I’m crying from relief knowing what I’m feeling isn’t rare.

Thank you ma’am I needed to hear you

This was very helpful for my complex ptsd - Thank you for sharing (I just joined your channel fam).

I'm crying because i finally have a video to verbalize how i feel. I am chronically alone and I destroy all my relationships w baggage.