Living with Pure O (An Internal Form of OCD)

Wait is this not normal for everyone????

having ocd is so hard bc it’s one of those disorders that tons of people selfdiagnose themselves with when you tell them about your experience “oh i think i have it to bc i overthink” or something like that. it’s so much more complex than being anxious abt something or being insecure or self conscious abt something which literally every person has gone through. having ocd is so depressing and exhausting and people actually STRUGGLE with it every day non stop like it’s so hard to relax. pure o especially is so hard to describe that when you talk abt it ppl who don’t actually understand what you’re talking abt think they can relate because it’s just so hard to accurately describe how it is without yapping and rambling and sounding crazy and welrd bc that’s literally what goes on in our head

I feel so seen by this video. Thank you.

Your videos are honestly life saving. Thank you for making these videos and thank you for the admirably courageous people who share their story. Not only have I learned about so many other people's stories of struggles but I've been brought so much clarity on my own struggles that I didn't know if I ever would receive clarity on. Escpeically to know that I am not the only one. That does something healing inside.

You are a good person with good values. Thank you for speaking out.

Thank you! You are so smart and brave. Sharing this self-awareness is leadership.

The cat made me happy

A debilitating disease and people make fun of it.

I started crying like a baby just a couple of minutes into watching this because it just clicked in me that this is exactly what I've been dealing with, and have had so much trouble putting my finger on, for so many years. Thank you so muck for sharing this! I can't tell you enough how liberating it feels to hear someone else talk about this. Hearing someone else's experience somehow allowed me to get a lot more perspective on my own and that feels so incredibly reassuring. Thank you <3

It's interesting, because I experience this kind of thing almost daily and for some reason when I see other people sharing these situations my mind is like "God. I can't imagine what it feels like to experience that." And then it's like, "Oh, but I experience this too everyday", hahaha

I have been struggling with this for so long, I NEVER knew what it meant or if I was broken. This episode couldn’t of came at a better time, I feel seen.

Shes cute

Huh. Didn't know there was a specific name for my subtype. I haven't had actual physical compulsions since I was a child. I don't...think I'm going start calling it 'Pure O' though.

She’s describing my childhood and early adulthood… you can get better.

First memory of ocd was 5th grade and I became obsessed with getting aids. Unfortunately my mom took me t9 the priest lol nothing is wrong with faith or religion but it wasn’t the best choice. Fast forward to mid 20’s and I began to have intrusive thoughts around purses, money, things that centered around trust and personal items, this was really hard a morphed into behaviors around not sitting or standing near any one’s personal items, etc. my ocd then changed into pedophilia ocd, I nearly drove myself insane and felt like I couldn’t talk to anyone. Major avoidance and hyper vigilance behaviors. I ended friendships and just spiraled. Finally got a therapist, I was able to work on it and manage it, the behaviors did go down. Unfortunately my ocd has,spiked again and I feel like I have set myself back 20 years. It’s good to see this to remind myself ocd is real and you can always work,on getting better.

I still imagine swarf from my old work wrapping round my fingers and severing them. Pure O and the intrusive thoughts are the worst part of my OCD. Checking my door 12 times everytime I leave my house pales in comparison. 😆

I have been diagnosed with BPD for over 10 years but it seems more apparent to me that it was, at the very least, not a complete diagnosis. Somehow my therapist at the time seemed to completely miss the fact I have OCD. I suppose it doesn't really matter in the long run. It just means I haven't really recieved the help I think I needed.

I expiriecne what Erica expiriences on a daily basis. We seem to have very similar manifestations of OCD... OCD is massively misunderstood. This is a great video for anyone interested in truly understanding the disorder.

Thank you for sharing this video 'Special Books'. 🖤

I feel sorry for Erica having this disorder. I do feel concern for this young man who is with her. Anyone who is telling you that your always triggering her mental illness will only in the end destroy you. Friends would be better. Years of being torn down due to Ericas ocd may never beable to be repaired. No person is put on this earth to fix another person. Hope for both of you.

I love hearing someone say how I feel too :) Stay strong !!

There is power in the name of Jesus to heal and restore us.

I have this, it sucks

i had tears streaming out of my eyes while watching, it was really cool to meet you both ❤‍🩹🧒

My therapist said I have OCD tendencies and I've never felt more understood by hearing her talk. Thank you for sharing.

I can relate to this very slightly when it comes to heights. When I'm standing somewhere high, like the top of a tower, looking down, I get this thought of a small part of me thinking about (not) jumping. Not that I actually want to jump or have any suicidal thoughts, but it's more like I think I have to keep myself from doing something I don't wanna do in the first place. Strange thoughts.

The problem is that her thoughts are based on false premises, therefore she can never come to a valid conclusion. Her whole brain is programmed with nonsense, and she's not able to think her way out of it. She's stuck in a loop.

My daughter has struggled with this and there are things we found that trigger it. Certain foods and especially fragrance. I'm thankful for a friend who walked through this before me with her daughter so that I knew how to help my daughter.

i would love to have ocd.

Thank you for the representative ❤

Buddhism helps a lot and explain everything about ocd and intrusive thoughts🎉

Living with undiagnosed OCD before knowing OCD was a thing and thinking you're a bad person all the time for having those thoughts like 🤪

i feel for the bruh, let me give him advise











run as far away from her as you can let her be gay and then run back to you he is to nice

Gen z

I know this isn't politically correct but that is a spirit sitting on her, causing confusion and internal chaos. I dealt with something similar and you have to rebuke it and go to Jesus. This will help somebody. Even if she takes medication, what happens when she stops. It's a bandaid on a gun wound that needs spiritual surgery.

her earring are from joe fresh, so cute, i have the same oneshaha

like like like like like like like like I guess we all have our obsessions

Her partner seems so supportive. I wish I had someone who could support me like this when I’m spiraling or feeling really overwhelmed with thoughts.

Wow! I was not expecting to relate to this! But I guess I have intrusive thoughts. They're normally about hurting or killing my pets that I love, or damaging or throwing away things that I care about. Things I know I would never do, but sometimes I can't shake imagining it. Like I could do it, it would be so easy, I imagine doing it, but I just tell myself that I know I won't and I try to shake it. I don't think it affects me too much, but I don't like it. I haven't really told anyone. Sometimes I feel like I have to imagine doing it before I can push it aside.

I’ve never felt more seen by anything in my life. Thank you.

I think what helps me is that if I'm having distress/fear over a thought then it's OCD.

I have Pure O and it is your mind battling itself! Imagine having this and then trying to perform at your job, be in a relationship and even simpler tasks like showering or getting dressed. It's a very difficult life but definitely talk about it as that has at least helped me.

THANK YOU!!!!! I’ve had many people tell me “pure O” isn’t real, including psychiatrists! So glad it’s getting representation 😊

i wish someone could introduce her sam harris' wakinp up app

WOW. I think I may have made a discovery. I try very hard not to ‘self diagnose’ but 99% of everything you mentioned here, I feel too. The guilt, the shame, the feeling of inadequacy. I have been thinking it’s possible ‘imposter syndrome’ but I genuinely believe I have always had some form of OCD, mentally, psychologically but always thought I was odd and slightly broken, if not just very particular. I had a huge realisation back in 2017 when I thought I may have ADHD and thus, was diagnosed with it. Pre GAD and depression since I was at least 16. But THANK YOU so much for being so open and smashing through that stigma love. Honestly, you’re amazing and that boyfriend of yours has your back & that’s bloody great ❤ I will looking more into ‘Pure O’, I can’t actually believe it’s never really crossed my path before. THANK YOU TOO SBSK for being a light in my life 🩷 you’re changing the world, please keep on doing this xxxxxx

I cant watch this video without intrusive thoughts

I’ve had this for 10 years but haven’t got treated. It’s so similar to what she’s dealing with. Thank u for making this video.

does anybody possibly have any advice for opening up to your partner about these issues? i have been in a serious committed relationship for several years now and i still feel as if my partner is largely unaware of my issues, she knows i have really bad mental health and she's very supportive but at the end of the day ive never told her the specifics of how i feel and what i think. i want to tell her but freeze up before i even start speaking... does anyone here have experience facing this?

This woman is so beautiful. Inside and out.